| But she breaks just like a little girl |
[mar. 3e, 2005|09:12 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | Essential Bob Dylan | ] |
Biscotti, Bob Dylan, Sunshine, Good friends...does life get any better? |
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| Please could you stay awhile to share my grief for its such a lovely day |
[fév. 24e, 2005|07:54 am] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | portishead - wandering star | ] |
My feet are soaking from the walk across campus and I already know that I am getting sick. Because my head is throbbing, I cannot stay awake and every thing from my throat down to my toes ache. I am so tempted to find one of my favorite quiet spots and fall asleep. I think I'm going to go to "my place of refuge". :)
Yesterday's hail storm was horrific! I planned on going to my class and Jackie and I started walking from our car when it began to lightly rain. Before we had stepped off, the sky had suddenly turned dark, so I took that as a horribe sign. I mentioned to Jackie that we should go back to our car but she insisted that we'd be fine since we had an umberalla. Thus began one of the most horrible five minutes of my life. A huge loud thunderous noise and then thousands of gigantic marbles started falling from the sky. It was so painful! I panicked and Jackie had to literally hold me under the umberalla to keep me from getting hurt anymore then I was. With the force of the hail and the wetness of the rain I thought for sure that I was bleeding. Finally made it to the art building. But by then my skirt was heavy with the rain, my shoes were sloshing and my hair needed to be wrung out.
On the bright side though strangers seem more eager to talk and listen in the past two days. It's almost like the awful weather conditions brings out the more brighter aspect of humanity. I think it's easier to start a conversation with people who look like drowned rats then when they are dry and don't look like they're falling apart.
I need new shoes. I'm sloshing again. |
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| You're as pretty as a rose (that you are) |
[fév. 8e, 2005|08:35 am] |
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| |  jubilant | ] |
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| | Prince - When Doves Cry | ] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSE!
I know I'm a day late, I'm sorry! But I hope you have an extended Happy Birthday. |
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| If that aint love then tell me what is |
[jan. 31e, 2005|04:27 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | Portland, Oregon - Loretta Lynn and Jack White | ] |
Forced myself to sit for five minutes and came out with a odd number paged paper. No not all of it in five minutes, but the idea came and from that others flowed and before I even knew what hit me, lo and behold the paper is staring me in the face. It's not that I don't love writing, I do! It's just that being such a beautiful day as this I would have much preferred to write outside, but I know that then I would get other ideas and write a sonnet perhaps, or another piece that would be abstract to the actual topic. But once you get stuck in the world of ideas who can tell what happens next.
Tea is whistiling my name and I am going to take a late afternoon nap. I am exhausted and after building volcanoes who wouldn't be? |
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| Red's beginning to become my natural color |
[jan. 26e, 2005|09:34 am] |
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| |  embarrassed | ] |
So I unknowingly hit on this guy. Jackie should have been walking next to me but got delayed and so was behind me and I lean over without first checking to make sure she's there and say really stupidly, "Hey do you want to go with me to the math lab?" Only to find that jackie had some how become male and with facial hair. SO rather then retract what I say I stumble away and pull jackie, who I found behind me and left before he even got a chance to answer.
Now doesn't that sound like some lame pick-up line? |
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| thanks for the memories!! |
[jan. 24e, 2005|09:43 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | Beatles - Can't Buy me Love | ] |
YOUR SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL
[What year was it?]
2002
[What were your three favorite bands?]
Jimi Hendrix Expierence
Beatles
Phoebe Snow
[What was your favorite outfit?]
Anything that wouldn't get ruined working with mud
[What was up with your hair?]
Mostly highlighted with clay strands
[Who were your best friends?]
Tiffany, Katie, toby, you know the knightwriter crew....memories. :o)
[What did you do after school?]
Knightwriters! Poetry Slams! Art Exhibits!
[Did you take the bus?]
no it was too big ;o)
[Who did you have a crush on?]
No one.
[Did you fight with your parents?]
No.
[Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?]
No one. (well not entirely true I did love Dylan Thomas, but mostly his words)
[Did you smoke cigarettes?]
no.
[Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day because you were too nervous to find your locker?]
Nope, I mostly had my art class, creative writing and knightwriters. Every other book was my own choice
[Did you have a 'clique'?]
Hmm...was knightwriters a clique? Sure we hung out before, during and after school, ate lunch together and took road trips..maybe it was a 'clique'. lol
[Did you have "The Max" like Zach, Kelly and Slater?]
Ms. Kirby's room
[Admit it, were you popular?]
Knightwriters owned the school ;o)
[Who did you want to be just like?]
Bruce Lee
[What did you want to be when you grew up?]
A philosopher
[Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?]
I figure I'd be at school, but I had no idea I'd be in the computer lab!!! |
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| nothing remains the same, but there's always time |
[jan. 23e, 2005|12:48 pm] |
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| |  calm | ] |
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| | older chests - damien rice | ] |
there is something about sunday that feels different from any other day of the week. for some strange reason today, i feel like running. I haven't wanted to run anywhere for a long time. But I want a carefree run that entitles play, not the kind where a) you're running for your life or b) you are running because of a almost missed appointment. I want to be a little girl again and visit the park and waste away an entire afternoon on the swings. Why does work and school take priority over fun? I want to spin until I'm so dizzy that I collapse on the floor and watch the swirl of colors take me away from reality. I want to go swimming and let the immersion of water make me feel light and cover me until I can only hear the loud noise of silence that water makes in your ears and end the day by sitting beneath my favorite tree and watching the stars and talking with a close friend or maybe not talking, just listening.
I'm going to go find a carefree time after work and enjoy life for it's sacredness |
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| That Superman and Robin Hood are still alive in Hollywood |
[jan. 20e, 2005|10:51 am] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | Don Williams - I believe in You | ] |
my feet are bruised from wearing flip flops. that is ridiculous. I need to start faithfully taking my iron. I'm always put off by them because I don't want to overdose but not having enough iron can be just as bad and besides I don't want to hurt when I walk because the top of the flip flops touch my feet.
In other news, a Giant 17 lb baby was born. I thought that was pretty interesting.
Yeah, well I got to get to class. |
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| Espresso is to Italy, what champagne is to France. |
[jan. 13e, 2005|07:20 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | switchfoot - beautiful letdown | ] |
Too much shock for one day. All I can say is any one who is dumb enough to rip their face with a cheese grinder or smash their face with a light bulb, please don't publicize it so that it makes it into the news where a psych. professor will see it on some random friday night, tape it and force his class to watch it. Pondering the sheer madness of it all I couldn't help but struggle to get the imagery out of my head. Even with squirming in my seat and covering my hands with my face *(involuntary reaction/reflexes, some thing I am really grateful for) I couldn't quite get the thought out of my head.
**Also, if some one weighs 250 lbs more then you, it is not necessarily a good idea to sit on a picnic table and watch them on the roof as you wait for them to come smashing down on you. Yes the "professional" on t.v. do it, but leave it to the magic of hollywood and not to the ignorance of back yard entertainment. No matter how many of your friends encourage you.
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Had to get that off my chest..*Shrudder*** Now that that's all over with, let me reflect on some more brighter moments of my day. I ate lunch with Jackie, Milan and Shannon and even though we walked almost a mile to our destination (I take full blame guys)it wasn't half bad. Alright, wait that's a lie. I ordered a vegetarian sandwich and got a regular baloney sandwich, minus the lunch meat. EUghh...but what do I expect? I go into the Ag culture to order a vegetarian plate and meat is their main staple, so I guess I got what I deserved, an onion and tomato sandwich. (waste of 5 bucks) But the company made the lunch pleasant. and the whole idea of their concept of veg. plate did make me laugh, even now. I got what I deserved, at least they didn't kick me out of their lunch room.
After watching/thinking/hearing all of the above mentioned things, I was greeted by Jackie and Glory after class with a picture of hope, CONOR!!! Now I thought I was at the mature point where I was content realizing that I would never meet him and that he would forever be my big unattainable crush, but one glance at his picture and I melted. Yes, I have a school girl crush and despite my age can be reduced to a squealing school girl after looking into his deep intense eyes..but so what right? lol, I have Felice to thank for that and when I see her I'm going to give her the biggest hug, she really brightened my day.
I got to the point where I completed my day and then suddenly I became really exhausted. That's happened a lot recently, where I'm fine one moment and then really tired the next. Maybe it's lack of sleep...or rest. Either way I'm going to take it easy. I'm looking forward to this whole semester..sans reviewing self destructive behaviorial patterns. But I'll be wiser and better prepared for the world after it, right?
Tomorrow Morning Here I come! |
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| next to coffee you're my favorite! |
[jan. 13e, 2005|07:04 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | the darkness | ] |
and so it begins..the early mornings, the sleepless nights, late hours spent staring in front of notes and books, deadlines, term papers, finals... bring it on.
at the rate I'm going I'll be Ms. Sofie in no time... |
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| Now they laugh at that moment that it happened |
[jan. 9e, 2005|12:05 am] |
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| | The White Stripes | ] |
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| | It's true that we love one another - the white stripes | ] |
Float On by Modest Mouse |
"Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans"
Laid back and real, people appreciated you for you are in 2004.
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On a more interesting note, a customer told me that I resemble a certain famous Greek/French Singer, though the name leaves me at the moment.
Well
all is well that ends well
G.E. Moore: Take my hand. Take my other hand. No, this isn't a dream! But it is quite lovely.
*haha, some philosophy pick up line, you have to give it points for creativity! anyways, I love it!!
Is there any better feeling in the world then holding an infant in your arms, rocking her to sleep? I was helping my cousin by babysitting for her and all i can say is there is nothing more peaceful then listening to music and cradeling a newborn. :) |
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| Like today never happened |
[jan. 4e, 2005|11:10 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
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| | Veggie Tales | ] |
Bring on the food!!!
I think a road trip is in order, one complete with ice skating and scenic routes. One last celebration before the oncoming spring semester, with all the good music one can play between destinations. Good bye to colds, to work, to marking the clock. For only a few brief moments. Let the demands all eat cake, for now the snow is calling and the slopes are waiting. |
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| maybe that familiar stranger is worth taking a second look at |
[jan. 4e, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | George Strait | ] |
So after reading jackie's post i have to say there's not much I can add to our new year's eve. Even though she did fail to mention the whole almost getting married thing. lol
well, whatever is going around I caught it, and as it would seem, so did most of the people around me. So if you see me and it looks like I've been crying it's probably because Ive been sneezing..yuck.
Let's see what this new year brings. So much has already changed from last year. Just reviewing the highlights makes me anticipate the coming days. For now though I'll take the comfort of sitting in my favorite c.h. with my friends, who knows how long we'll have to cherish these days? |
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| The music plays soft while the band falls apart |
[déc. 29e, 2004|07:16 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | The Innocence Mission - Tomorrow on the Runway | ] |
I'm looking back at this past year and am amazed to see how much has changed since last year. So much has happened within this small amount of time frame...new people have come into my life, wonderful people, new events have taken place and then there's the things that haven't changed so much as they have grown, and that even amazes me more.
for now I want to take a long walk and reflect on life and it's beauty.just me, the stars and my chamomile tea. I think I will, afterwards, spend whatever remaining time of my day with Mr. Hans Christian Andersen. A nice end to a lazy day.
"and you, you're some kind of angel, who took me aside and said, "hey never mind, I'll make you feel better..now which dream is yours and which is mine?" |
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| I wonder... |
[déc. 26e, 2004|03:57 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | Feels Like Home - Norah Jones | ] |
Pierrot
Took his heart
And hung it
On a wayside wall.
He said, "Look,
Passersby,
Here is my heart!"
But no one was curious.
No one cared at all
That there hung Pierrot's heart
That there hung Pierrot's heart
On the public wall.
So Pierrot
Took his heart
And hid it far away.
Now people wonder
Where his heart is
Today *Langston Hughes "heart" |
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| (pas de sujets) |
[déc. 25e, 2004|06:25 pm] |
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Merry christmas. I love you guys. |
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| Survey Says.... |
[déc. 9e, 2004|10:48 pm] |
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| |  lethargic | ] |
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| | Mojave 3 - Love Songs on the Radio | ] |
( Read more... ) |
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| Just rest now in a moment you'll know everything was it all a dream? |
[déc. 8e, 2004|09:32 pm] |
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| | recumbent | ] |
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| | Perfect Sonnet - Brighteyes | ] |
I want so badly to find rest for my weary head. I had a chance today, in the early afternoon to just sit and close my eyes. It felt so good to get lost in tranquility.
I kept walking and waking up from my day dreams, at random points of the day I would feel surreal. Almost as if I were in a dream and things were moving slowly. Voices fading in and out and then I'd realize that I wasn't dreaming, and then I'd get back to whatever it was I was doing. Then it would start all over again. I felt like that little boy in a cartoon I watched when I was younger. He was always day dreaming and no matter where you sat him his mind would be off and wandering again.
My depedency on music is extreme.
"This isn't happening..happening...happening..happening..happening..IT IS!!
I was walking around campus, late into the evening and walking past biology annex when these memories of last year at this time, came flooding back. And I do believe that the entire stage has been reset and all the characters have been replaced with others. But you know what they say, "the show must go on."
and time's not poison but once you drink it all you'll die
so let's just sip it real slow
yeah we can nurse it all night
try to believe that once it's gone
we'll pour another round and come back to life
come right back |
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| Love, the world is filled with it |
[déc. 6e, 2004|06:54 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
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| | Elliott Smith | ] |
Reasons why I believe in people:
Because I was cold, freezing even with my sweater on and my friend takes off his jacket and gives it to me, despite the fact that he is wearing a cotton short sleeve shirt and no matter what he says I know he has to be freezing too.
Because I walk into the library, straight for the copy center, already tired from the day and right as I'm about to pay the guy behind the counter tells me, "Merry Christmas" and doesn't accept my money.
Because I know my co-workers are as exhausted as I am with the holiday rush and yet they go out of their way to make me feel comfortable in a new enviroment. Plus they are willing to cover my shift without making a fuss about them being too tired to help me out.
Because the people who come through my lines are tired from the days burdens but they stop to talk and smile and not complain even when the computer is not cooperating.
Because the sight of a certain beautiful baby in a red christmas outfit can make a huge group of grown-ups stop what they are doing and crowd around the stroller to catch a glimpse of a miracle sleeping.
Because I am a girl and some one taught their son manners, strangers are willing to jump back to open the door, or wait a little longer to open the door and not grumble about the wait but instead smile and greet you when I know they have to be some where just as much as I do.
Because I have a sister who is willing to put her life on hold when I need some thing and not remind me that she is putting her life on hold but rather pretends that it is her responsibility to do so because she is the big sister. When in reality I know that she is doing it because she loves me.
Because the stranger who is stopped at the crosswalk waiting to get to their car can share in a conversation and not be jaded by their busy schedule.
I could continue the list but I have work in half an hour. But I can't help but reflect on how beautiful life really is. |
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